You’re totally spot on, I’d say. I’m definitely too critical on myself, and it seems to be a factor in what’s stopping me from completely exploring new things (along with severe ADHD lol). I sure do spend a lot of time THINKING about other options instead of just diving in. Nearly all my life choices up until now have been heavily impulse based, so I think deep down I’m attempting to make sound choices and I end up just pondering and procrastinating instead.
I’ve seriously been thinking about going to college specifically for the networking aspect, since I don’t have many connections at all and do find it difficult to cultivate them. I’ve always wanted to go to college and stick through it, but the price is definitely stopping me, on top of not knowing what exactly I’d major/minor in.
My dad actually does HVAC/Electrical, and has been for my whole life. Growing up and to this day I help him on the job every once in a while, but I only understand the basics. If he was still looking for clients, I’d be down in Miami looking for grows and labs right now hahaha, but he’s trying to retire. I don’t think I’d enjoy doing it long-term though.
I’m good at working with my hands but it honestly gets frustrating after a while, as far as I can tell I seem to have a higher tolerance for computer based work if anything, plus I’m not a very big or strong person so extremely laborious tasks aren’t my forte.
Here’s a few things I’ve realized I enjoy learning about (in no specific order);
-World history, specifically human relations and the rise/fall of civilizations, as well as art and architecture.
-Horticulture/Agriculture, I’ve enjoyed it as a hobby since I started growing indoors back in CO, and now I finally have space to play around with an actual food producing garden.
-Sustainability, I think the cannabis industry is in dire need of innovation in terms of sustainability, like energy consumption, manufacturing waste, among other social and economic aspects.
-Landscape photography, whenever I do get out on a hike or something I enjoy taking scenic pictures, but honestly who doesn’t?
-Building PCs, setting up servers, modding games that I enjoy, among other computer based tasks.
Anyway, I hope I don’t seem like I’m making excuses. I guess I just wanted to express what I’ve been thinking and feeling lately. I appreciate you chiming in with a healthy dose of realism. I also saw @AgTonik post about remote work ideas the other day and I’m considering those options as well. Always helpful to hear different perspectives and ideas.
I’ll be making a much stricter schedule for myself after today to keep my ass on track xD